What remains is this......
Cats.
Simple love.
Cats.
It was not a simple love that led me to Seti.
It was my kitties.
They led me there and have guided me since.
I know you all think this silly, but it is not.
When I lost my Tigger, and then my Squirrel, it really tore me up.
Tigger was lost to CRF, Squirrel to old age./
These were bits of my life gone forever.

I still have a hard time with it...

When one chooses to share a bit of life with a companion animal, it can become a bit tragic when they have to leave.

I know how difficult it is to rant without laying blame. :-)

Yes, the purpose of a rant to to lay blame upon another, deserved or not.

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I get drunk and open.
This offends too many, I guess.

Yes, it does. Sorry to say it so bluntly, but yes, it does.

I have been monitoring the forums, and have seen some taking pokes at me for fun.

Granted, I don't read every forum, just News, Tech News (on the now-rare occasions anything at all is posted in it), NC, and Cafe, but the only public mentions of you that I've seen were inquiries about where you've been and why you've been gone so long. No pokes, just polite questions with brief, if any, answers.

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I get drunk and open.
This offends too many, I guess.

Yes, it does. Sorry to say it so bluntly, but yes, it does.

Well, I can be sober and surly, if that better suits ya....LOL.

And ya know..........
It is a bit easier to move on not waiting for Seti redemption.
It WOULD be nice to be able to converse with my fellow GPUUG teammates, or to be able to inquire about crunching questions.
And it grates my teeth not being able to answer at times when some really simple but honest questions are posed in Number Crunching.
Or to tell some that I saw the last impending server crash coming hours before it happened by seeing some stats that I monitor go falling down on their knees.

Their are no other forums like Seti's in all of Boincland.

And I should like to add a sincere thank you for those who have understood and allowed me to make THIS forum my little adopted home.
I have tried hard not to abuse it too badly.

Their are no other forums like Seti's in all of Boincland.

That is true, Pxxxxxx mods quite a few .....

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Their are no other forums like Seti's in all of Boincland.

That is true, Pxxxxxx mods quite a few .....

Yeah, and it is hard starting out in a different forum like Einstein.
Stuff I could say here due to my past history just don't play in Dayton, as they say.

I have to share this.
Many of my past friends know that I have identified closely with Doc Holliday.
I shoot straight, and don't differentiate between friend and foe very quickly.
I have the known strategy of being the one who shoots first and fast.
That has made me somewhat of a legend, so to speak.

I ask few questions, and expect few answers.
Few have been offered over the years.
When I do offer some insights into my life, they are punctuated with truth.
Pain. Suffering. Questioning. Hurt. Anger........oh, a lot of anger.

I find it easy to find pain. There has been soo much of it in my life.
And if you don't understand my pain, I can find a way to describe it to you in fine detail. And wipe it across your face in ways you never knew.
That is why some hate me so much. I don't lie. And they like to pretend that they are above me.

Just watch the cast of characters on Seti........
They are really all just posers, all of them.
Me included. The kittyman.......well, that is a persona I acquired years ago.
I have the simple truth behind my hidden face.
I AM a kittyman, so it's not hard to play the part, because it is ME.
Now, may you understand a part of the piece I play on Seti.

I have had the good fortune of some friends that have graced me with hardware to further my endeavors..........God bless 'em.

I have some ways to go.........dunno just in what direction at the moment.
You may tag along on the ride, if you wish.
If you wish to diss me, that is fine as well. I'll get my accounting some day regardless of YOUR opinion.

Just know that I have been to the OK corral, and there were few that walked away alive.
I have. You may not, kids.

Hell is coming with me, buddies.......and riding fast.

I find it easier to find truth rather than lies these days.
But, I guess I always did.
Some of you never understood that.

Here is my truth.....
From one of my favorite movies of all time....
The MAN speech from Second Hand Lions..........

Beta may FINALLY be back up; but, I'm having trouble reporting tasks... :-(

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Have TARDIS, will travel...
Come along K-9!
Join Calm Chaos
Pluto is still a planet

Now, kids..........
This just made me cry.......Sugarland.

I can be whatever I wish to be.
And often am.

This is a story not told often enough.
I happen to exist in my own little world.
If my world and your world for a short while coexist, that makes me smile.
If the twain never do meet, that saddens me.

All quiet on the kitty front this morning.
The computers are plodding along on Einstein.

Life, as I experience it, is good today.

One day, if given the opportunity, I may return to Seti with a smile on my face.
Just please know that all is rather good in kittyland today.

There are few things that I cannot overcome when my little brain chemicals get themselves sorted correctly....LOL. And it IS a constant battle for me.

I do hope that at least a few of you understand the fact the alcohol is the least of my problems. I can be dry as a bone for weeks and the struggles that take place in my mind still rage. It is not the bottle, my friends.
The bottle does allow me to break free at times from the prison that my mind keeps me in. And that is not always a bad thing. It does lay bare my anger and pain some times, and I do understand that it's that side of me that you can find very hard to deal with. So do I, my friends. So do I.

I am a 57yo work in progress. Every day brings new challenges for me to overcome. And I strive to do so. Every day.

So, please consider those things before you go off on me from your ivory towers at times. Please try to understand me from where I live. And know that the anger I display at times is just something I have to get out, or it will kill me.
It is not who I am. It is something I have to rid myself of before it builds to a level I cannot contain.

And know that I really do love you all. You have forgiven me so much.

Meow for now.

You really need to read this.
Sums up quite a bit.
The fact that the republican party kicked arse is really not as important as the reasons WHY they did so.

"The rich are making more money and the poor are getting more handouts than ever while the middle class watches their bills go up, their incomes stay the same, and their bank accounts and any hope of giving their children a leg up or retiring in comfort dwindle with every passing year."


This is very truthful.....

And yes, it's from Fox News......the folks that many of you like to make fun of, but tell the truth that some of you don't wish to hear.

"I don't buy DJs............."
I do, and did.
Wolfman Jack........that bit?
I was there.
He was rather innocent and just became the cause of the moment.
Hell, there were a dozen or more players involved at the time.
Pay for play was the thing of the day.
I could state names and people, but the grand jury is out on that one.
And I am not gonna bring it back./

What some of you do not realize or accept is the simple fact that I have been more place and experienced much more that you give me credit for.

There is more than bluster to my name, kids.
I did it. I went there. I WAS there.
You were not, and can't possibly lay claim to what I know.

I am old enough to make these claims. Most of you are not.

When I get done here on Seti, there are gonna be some real life things that you are gonna have to deal with.
And OMG, you are gonna have to live with them.

Just google msattler one time, kids.
My life is all over the net.

I don't quite know why I seem to identify with being a gurl.
I am not. Must have been something Jett did to me years ago.
I like being a gurl sometimes....Can you possible understand that?
Gender issues are a big part of my life.


Meow.

Message to Eric and Angela.

Your vendetta is getting really, really old.
Time for a truce?
I think that even most of my evil enemies think that you have been at it long enough.
You are way past your due.
And it's time you got over it.

Please give the kitties some relief now.
It is time.

LOL...........you do remember this gal?
very young kid.
Taylor Ware.

She was quite the kid.
Remember this...............

I am not about dyin'.
Not just yet.
I am gonna fight ya tooth and nail until the end...............

I am not about dyin'.
Not just yet.
I am gonna fight ya tooth and nail until the end...............

And give ya some soap in the meantime3................


Little bit, eh?

Good hear you may have new Kittie. Jupiter didn't work out, but I may have an interloper.
Ulihon

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Pluto will always be a planet to me.